After 2 weeks back on the roads, I attempted 18 miles this morning to see how the leg would do. First of all, the wind was brutal and we ran into it, up hill for most of the run. Typical! So with one element already working against us, the pace was slow although it felt like we were doing 7 min miles!
My first 9 miles felt good. The calf was slightly tight but good. And that's where the positive ends.
The furthest I had run during the week was nine so as soon as we clicked 9.01, I felt my ankle and the pace slowed! The "Hail Marys" began and after about a mile and a half, a voice in my head started to say, "defer, defer, defer". Message heard & received.
I will not be running Houston next month. Period, the end.
Right now, I don't know what the future holds for me & Boston. Maybe it was a pipe dream and the closest I can hope for is as a spectator. Maybe tomorrow I'll have a better attitude and perspective. Right now, I'm just frustrated & I'm going to allow myself that.
I know I have a lot to be thankful for and proud of as far as my accomplishments this year. My mind is telling me this but my heart hurts.
Thanks to my group for the support and words of encouragement this morning. I hope you can forgive the stinky attitude.
Found this image. Message heard & received!
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