Perspective

Training this past week was right on track.  At the end of the week, however, I find myself reflecting on perspectives.  Here is my list of reflection:

1. My training partner left for a month in order for her oldest son to attend camp.  This may seem strange to some that you would travel out of state for an entire month so your kid can go to camp but when it is what they need, you do whatever it takes to make it happen.  Perspective.....is what I am doing in the best interest of my family or am I selfish in my goals?

2. As a result of #1, I had to adjust when I got my runs in.  In order to accomplish my goal of finishing the Mankato Marathon with a certain time I HAVE to complete each workout at a set pace.  I say this so you understand that when I went out for a 7 mile run with 3 kids on bikes in tow, this was going to be difficult.  The logical me knew this but the irrational focus driven me didn't want to listen.   This resulted in feelings of frustration towards the kids.  Perspective....what the hell is wrong with me?!  They rode their bikes 7 MILES!!!!!

3. This last reflection really has me pondering.  "I" had a soccer tournament this weekend & I wasn't able to attend the first day.  J took her to the first game & when asked how it went, his perspective was she didn't play much.  Hmmm.  2nd game didn't go well according text message updates but I didn't realize the full extent of "not well" until the next morning.  The girls lost the game but it was the sideline behavior on the spectator side of the field that may need some perspective.  Have we lost sight of the importance of leading by example, being respectful,  supporting our coach, letting him be our voice & just being our kid's cheerleaders?

This morning I had a track workout scheduled and it sucked but I did it & there was one vision that kept me going & pushing to give it my all.  I watched one of our girls yesterday (who is not the fasted on our team) chase a girl halfway down the field to cut off her shot on goal.  She gave it her all, physically & with her heart!  She has been working so hard this summer to build her endurance & I COULD NOT have been prouder of her!  She got there & because if her, I did too!  Thank you M!

My goal has not changed but my perspective I hope has.  I will run, I will push but I will do it with heart & I will not beat myself up when I don't hit a mark!  I want my kids to see that isn't just about the finish, its about the journey & keeping things in perspective!